Sometimes I wonder why at times it feels as though peace is nonexistent in my life. I try to get things on track but there’s always something standing in the way. I’ve always been a person to always get pass these unwanted obstacles. How many obstacles will it take to finally get some peace? That’s a question I’m constantly asking myself. Yea, I’m a strong person, but even I need a break sometimes. I believe our fate is what we make it. I despise being a cancer at times because I’m often too kindhearted to people. Don’t get it twisted though, I have a very vicious mean streak. It usually comes from someone saying or doing something to me that was very unnecessary. I have people telling me about my attitude. It doesn’t pay to be nice to everyone because people have the tendency to take advantage and walk all over you. I refuse to allow that to happen anymore. I’ve came to the conclusion that I have to stop trying to make other people happy and work on making myself happy. I often feel sympathetic when people are feeling bad, but I’ve realized that most people don’t feel any kind of sympathy when I’m feeling bad, so why should I care how they feel? The saying goes, “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” I’m an avid believer in that saying. I’m not obligated to be nice to anyone who I may feel is undeserving. Sometimes being nice to people puts a bolt in your happiness. I’ve spent many years not being satisfied with the way I was being treated by people, simply because of how kind I was to people. That isn’t an issue for me anymore because I’ve learned to ignore & move on. That’s just my way of dealing with bs.
Lately I’ve been trying to get myself ready for school in the Fall. It was unfortunate that I had to leave back in ’04 but it was for a good reason. Now I’m ready to go back and nothing is going to stand in the way of that. I’ve always been a person to enjoy going to school. I’ve missed going for these last couple of years. Honestly, I’m not even sure what I want to go back for. At one point I wanted to be a teacher. At another point I wanted to be an FBI Agent, and at another time, I wanted to persue a degree in Graphic Design & Animation. All three of those are still options for me. There’s just so much that I want to do that I can’t even make up my mind. Whatever my decision will be, I know i’ll stick to it. I’ve really been contemplating just finishing my Education degree. Simply because, it’s still a strong interest of mine.
I’ve been meaning to do much more to the site but the truth of the matter is, I’ve been too lazy and distracted to complete it. We all know it takes a while to code and all of that good stuff. I’ve also been meaning to put up a new theme. I have one already made, but I have to code it. I’m going to be doing some more updating today, possibly. Take care & God Bless.
I know what you mean by being too nice somethimes. I try not to do that anymore cuz my peers depend on me for everything little thing or other try to take advanteg of my ‘niceness’.
GOOD LUCK when you go back to school. Hope everything goes well
I like this theme, your work is always very pretty.
I feel everything you said being a Cancer myself. I am the sweetest person in the world until someone crosses me.
I’m tired of being taken advantage of and people trying to play me for a fool.
i feel you on the obstacles that keep getting in the way.
Everytime I start to see a plan for myself something happens to pull me back. I also refuse to let it break me, I know God has a plan for me, the devil is always trying to hold me back, but I refuse to let him get me down. I know through God all things are possible.
I’m sure you’ll do great in anything you decide to go back to school for, you have a very good sense of mind about yourself. Good luck with whatever you decide to do.
I feel the same as you. I please EVERYone but no one seems to take the time out to return the love. I’m not trying to be selfish but there has to be a level of understanding in the friendship/relationship.
School will go fine. I know it. I’m now over coming a few obstacles myself. I plan to be back in school in the fall. I miss it. I been away 1 semester too long…lol
good luck with school!!!
I know how you feel. sometimes I feel like no matter what I do I can’t seem to catch a break. But what dosn’t kill me only makes me stronger right? At least thats what I tell myself
Well sis, life is full of obstacles! They just keep on coming. One thing that helps is if you think of your life as your own adventure, your own story. Meditate, do some periodic cleaning, get rid of anyone or anything that is bringing down the positive energy. It’s okay to have moments of limbo because it’s good for the soul. If you have no desire for change or growth then you won’t go anywhere, so it’s good to be frustrated and desire more. This reminds me of one of my recent blogs.
Also, You can’t be nice with everyone. Some people don’t get your point until you blast off! You can however walk away from some people nicely! lol. The people who try to tell you to be something they aren’t to you are usually just saying that in their own interest, so they can continue to milk your kindness or run over you. Forget about what they say. They’re saying what best suits their own needs. Do what’s in your best interest and let them think whatever they must. I wish you nothing but clarity and I know it’ll all fall into place.
people do sometimes take others for granted, it’s unfortunate but atleast you know who your real friends are. good luck with school.
hey sweet heart, honestly you have it right. You cant make everyone happy, because chances not everyone is trying to make you happy. Thats nature, and Im glad you realized that, thats the only way to true happiness. thats why you have your close friends, and family..and those who you see on an unusual basis. Life is too short to be worrying about everyone because like you said its creates more obstacles. Too many people, too many emotions, too many problems.
Im glad your going back to school. FB! sgent, sounds interesting.
Its true what you say.. We hear how people complain there is no nice people left, when the truth is they don’t deserve it. We can’t always be nice to someone for we do not know their true nature behind wanting us to “help” them.. where are they when we need that help in return?
I admire you for not givin up when it comes to wanting something to pursue your dreams/goals… Lots of luck…
Thanks for the comments girl , I appreciate it . What you said above about being nice & kind to people and they don’t even return that , that’s my exact situation too. I pretty much just don’t give a !@#$ about ppl nowadays, if I do , I’ll only hurt myself . That’s great how you’re focused on going to school and everything, keep that up !!
i struggle with being too nice at times as well. it something that i’m desperately trying to change about myself. i guess when its time, God will bless me the change i feel i need. anyways, keep your head up and never lose faith..trust me, it’ll pay of in the long run. :heart:
I feel like that a lot. I think people just don’t realize that they are doing such things. I know when a friend is upset I will go out of my way to make it better, but I hardly get the same in return. However I don’t truly expect it from them. Horrible to say, I know, but I find that when I lower my expectations I am not let down as much. Not to say you don’t deserve great things, because you do. I am just saying that great things don’t always happen the way we expect them to or from those we expect it from.
I really agree with that entry. I learned that I let people walk over me way too much. I’m getting sick of it and I’d rather express my anger in a more controlled way earlier, rather than an outburst later. I need a vacation.
I’m glad you get to go back to school though, I can tell you’re really devoted in the things you do, and I’m sure you’ll do great!
I feel you on this Ms Shan. I’m tired of people taking advantage of me & those around me, or atleast trying too. Congrats on being able to go back to school mama, lords knows I want to hurry up & lift this burden off my shoulders.
Hello Ms. Shan!You keeps it real,a quality that is not so common in a lot of people
“Do unto others as you would have them do unto you”
So true.I use to feel so bad for my friends when they come crying to me that when I needed them I suppose they weren’t even there.But then my mom told me you know who be there for you when you need them.
I also feel you on the college thing,I think its because there is soo many opportunities out here.I say why not grab a it!I know after school I want to go to cosmetology school.
And yes I found me a job lol after all on the campus.
Take care,be blessed!
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Oh wow, this layout is so beautiful.. love it! I can’t decided what course to take either (i’m taking it at home lol).. there’s crime scene investigation, beauty.. i just don’t know lol. I wish i could take more than one, but i doubt i’d get them finished lol. x
my friends are the only ones who tell me about my attitude… it’s like i am only “mean” towards them because OFTEN, they are mean towards me and as a child, i just let people walk over me and never spoke how i really felt and i just decided that things need to change and i am sticking with it.
i know that you’ll succeed in whatever you try to pursue in life Shannon but i still wish you good luck.