It Never Ends 001.

It seems like sometimes when I think that things are going to be looking up for me, something bad happens. For those of you who are on my livejournal list, twitter or plurk, you know that my son was recently admitted into the hospital because of a severe asthma attack. When we first arrived, they suspected that he had pneumonia but after some tests, it was discovered that he was just sick and it triggered an attack. I was so thankful that it wasn’t pneumonia because he’s only 4 years old and he has asthma, so it would have been a really bad thing. He’s still sick and hasn’t been very active, even after he has gotten home. He gets up to play some but I notice that he’s quickly tired out and has been developing fevers too. Sometimes I wish that I could intake all of his illness and put it into my body so he wouldn’t have to go through this. People think that having asthma is so minor, but it’s really a serious thing, especially in children who don’t know how to control it and ultimately can’t anyway.

My son is usually up and about, playing with my niece or just basically being a kid. So, when I see him so tired and not as active as he usually is, it bothers me to the core and I can’t help but to feel bad that he has to go through this. I’m asthmatic and I know how it feels to have this disease (yes, asthma is a disease). They’ve finally decided to put him on long-term medication and although I’m grateful for that I’m also disappointed that it’s even needed. One thing that I fear the most is that his body will become dependent on this medication but there’s really nothing they can do. When he first arrived in the ER, his oxygen level was so low and the doctors and I were really scared for him. I almost cried. I hate it because when you’re a mother, you’re already pretty paranoid so when something happens, that paranoia is magnified.

I have been really tired lately. The whole time in the hospital with him, I barely slept and today is now Monday so I’m back at work and extremely exhausted. I plan on going home tonight and getting some much needed shut eye. Not to mention, my daughter is now sick too. It seems like every time this stupid ass weather changes, my children are either sick or my son is having attacks. I’m growing weary and sadder by the day. The crazy thing is, just before my son’s attack, I helped someone out with some asthma medication because she was asthmatic and was having difficulty breathing. I guess that’s the price I pay for being nice to people. It’s ironic to me, I guess.

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11 Responses to “It Never Ends 001.”
  1. March 23rd, 2009 at 12:32 pm

    Oh dear, thank God your son is ok. I can’t imagine those feelings a mother feels when their child is hurting. I was up most of the night with my mother at the hospital, so I’ll probably need some sleep as well.

    I’ve never known anyone personally who had asthma, so I don’t really know what the effect can have on a person. I hope your children get better and you get some rest. You’ll need it.

  2. March 23rd, 2009 at 2:38 pm

    Poor baby, its heart breaking when your kids are sick. My son has to be put on a nebulizer every time fall and spring come around. His allergies bring on attacks. Or when he gets sick he usually gets a infection or virus in his lungs and has to be put on a nebulizer. Its hard but I try to stay strong because I know he needs me to be strong for him. I hope both of your children feel better soon.

  3. March 23rd, 2009 at 8:08 pm

    Well, of course you’re sad! All of this stuff is happening… I’m surprised you’re able to get a wink of sleep at all. I am sending all my heartfelt hugs out to you. Keep being a strong mama! Mine was, and I’m grateful for it. Your kids will be too. :star:

  4. March 23rd, 2009 at 11:20 pm

    Girl I hate to hear that happen. I have a 1year old myself && I cry when she gets something as little as shots! But when I first moved from KY to MI she got pneumonia 2 days later. She had a fever of 103. I felt so bad about it because I’m the one who moved her from climate to climate. It’s sad seeing them hurt && of course you wish you could take their illness from them even if it means you get it. I hope eveything goes well with your children.

  5. March 24th, 2009 at 1:12 pm

    Aw, poor kid. Hope you’re all doin’ better now.

  6. March 24th, 2009 at 5:06 pm

    so sorry to hear about your son, hopefully things will get better. I myself have a child and knows what it feels like when they’re sick or not feeling good.

  7. March 25th, 2009 at 1:09 am

    I love reading parenting stories. It drums up a sense of motivation with in me and reminds me that love has no limit. I’m glad your son is ok.

  8. March 25th, 2009 at 5:51 pm

    Hey Shannon. You know I’m a new mother and I know the feeling well at least halfway. Asthma I know is a very serious condition. Most people think it’s only breathing hard but I know it goes well beyond that. My son had a serious cold and I freaked out. So your son having such a serious condition I know can be very hardening on the heart.I want to say I’m proud of you because a lot of people don’t understand how hard it is to take care of a sick child with the doctor visits, medication and everything else that goes into it. You are a inspiration to me because beyond being a good mother you are smart and very talented. I’m glad your son is ok. I know it’s hard to see him that way but just try to focus on the good things so you don’t stress yourself out. You don’t need that k. :smile:

  9. March 25th, 2009 at 11:55 pm

    awww yeah i seen, im glad that hes okay. I have asthma attack the other day, and I know how it feels. It sucks oh so bad and it sucks to have it at a young age, i didnt really have it when I was younger but a lot of my cousins had it and i would see them on the machine and it would scare me.

    dont worry, everything will be alright, you guys will just have to learn how 2 cope with it. and dang girl how many sites you got? haha

  10. March 26th, 2009 at 12:02 am

    I am so sorry about your son. Im praying for you guys. I send my love. My nephew has asthma but he havent been in the hospital for awhile. He is always up and playing too.

    And remember to always have faith and keep your head up no matter what dear.

  11. March 26th, 2009 at 1:52 am

    Awww, I hope the little guy feels better soon! I know Asthma can be very scary
    I think i have a mild case of asthma, I was suppose to get tested, but never did. I know my sinus’ are horrible.
    Take care of yourself too, don’t get overly stressed and worried your babies need you healthy!